I have been doing a lot of thinking over the last few days. I don't know if I will be able to stay with Brian. I don't know if this is an initial reaction or if this will be forever but my love for him is fading. I still love him but I am not IN love with him.
I don't think that he is taking this separation seriously. He keeps telling me that it is JUST a break. I view this separation to be far more than a break.
The other day we got in a fight about everything. He told his whole family about the separation and now there is ever more judgement coming my way. His whole family has been commenting on my myspace about how they don't see a ring on my finger. They are also commenting about me being in pictures with guys. I don't understand how they are going to assume that these guys are my lovers now. I am in a foreign country making friends and when we go out in a group (a mix of both guys and girls) why it is not ok to take pictures with people of either sex without assumptions. I don't understand why it is any ones business either. I took my ring off because I am separated from my husband and for them to bring attention to that somewhere where it can be seen by all my friends and family is not ok by me.
Every single one of Brian's family feels that the separation is not needed and shouldn't have happened. My side of the family is happy that I made this decision. It seems that no matter what I do, someone will be unhappy(Not that I am aiming for their happiness in this situation).
I just hate that he is the one that has done something yet I get the judgement.
I don't think that he is taking this separation seriously. He keeps telling me that it is JUST a break. I view this separation to be far more than a break.
The other day we got in a fight about everything. He told his whole family about the separation and now there is ever more judgement coming my way. His whole family has been commenting on my myspace about how they don't see a ring on my finger. They are also commenting about me being in pictures with guys. I don't understand how they are going to assume that these guys are my lovers now. I am in a foreign country making friends and when we go out in a group (a mix of both guys and girls) why it is not ok to take pictures with people of either sex without assumptions. I don't understand why it is any ones business either. I took my ring off because I am separated from my husband and for them to bring attention to that somewhere where it can be seen by all my friends and family is not ok by me.
Every single one of Brian's family feels that the separation is not needed and shouldn't have happened. My side of the family is happy that I made this decision. It seems that no matter what I do, someone will be unhappy(Not that I am aiming for their happiness in this situation).
I just hate that he is the one that has done something yet I get the judgement.
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Susie, I'm checking in again to see how you're doing--haven't seen you on JWC in a while. I don't mean to be a nuisance, just want to make sure you're okay. Hope you're enjoying your time abroad!
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